Alistair

Top surgery’s like the only one I can really see myself having I think at the start of my transition I was really wanting to have bottom surgery as well because I thought it was really important whereas now I don’t think it is at all, so I think maybe that’s just me being a bit more comfortable and like accepting of some, because for me anyway I feel like bottom surgery’s kind of trying to have something that I won’t have. But I know people feel differently but like for me it doesn’t feel important because I’m not going to be a cis man so it’s kind of okay. So yeah top surgery for me is like the only one I would have.

I think I’m in a very privileged position because I’m from like a white middle class family and I think that, if that’s what you mean, I think like going to my GP and knowing exactly what to ask for and being someone that like is lucky in that I’m white and like I kind of come across quite articulate, I think I kind of got a better reaction, I mean she still didn’t know what she was talking about but she like found out whereas I think if I’d have come from like maybe a different background or been more unsure or not, maybe not been with the University health service GP it would have been a really different experience. So I think I’ve been luckier than others.

My worst experience with the NHS was when they, so I had to, it took me quite a while to change my name on the health system and, but I’d taken a deed poll and said you need to change my name on the sort of health system because I have appointments every month so I’m gonna be coming again, you know, like. And they for some reason didn’t and then I kind of was about three months on T and I’d gone to the GP and they’d like called the, you know, when it comes up on the screen and it would be like my dead name and it was really embarrassing and then I’d gone in to have my injection and it was a woman that had seen me before and she was like just dead named me the whole time and I was like you what, and I was really confused and like, because I’m not very confrontational so at the time I was quite like whatever and then I wrote a complaint to them and we kind of had it out about that and then there was loads of confusion about if you can change your title when, then it like erases your whole medical history and that’s been a constant like battle with that I don’t wanna I don’t really want to be Mx because that’s not me I want to be Mr but I can’t be Mr because it would erase all my medical history which I don’t feel like is accurate but that’s what they said, so.